Does It Count...?

When you ask if I'm okay, of course I'm going to say yes. I have to prove that I'm strong and can get through anything. But Honestly, the smallest things get to me, things you don't think about or wouldn't think would hurt me or make me sad..well they do. I can't help it, it's just who I am. I tell you I'm fine cause I want to seem like a strong person to you and not this person who falls apart everyday or night. Putting a smile on is the best way to get over it, and that's what I try doing. Try making you happy cause you make me happy. Don't know if you truly want to but you do. I guess you can say this is life and what happens happens, whether you're happy or not. Just have to live life taking chances and have no regrets. Staying positive is what I am trying to achieve. Does it count that I'm trying?? All I'm asking for is a helping hand, for you to stay up and make sure I'm okay. To talk to me, tell me sweet things that will make me smile.

I Know You're Scared It's Wrong

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
...
The world is ours if we want it
We can take it if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand
...
When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run
...
'Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart
Maybe, I can ease the ache
So let me give your heart a break

What Do You Call This? Like? Love? Confusion?

It's like you don't get it. I don't think you understand how much I want you and care about you. It's so hard knowing I'll never actually be with you. Every night all I can think about is what it would be like to be with you or to be holding your hand whenever I felt like it. I want to call you mine but I can't. This is what I was afraid of...slowly falling for everything about you. You say enjoy what we have, and I do, I just don't want to fall anymore unless I know you're going to be here to catch me. You're the reason for my happiness, my smiled and my laughter. You're the reason I am starting to trust again. I just don't want to be making another mistake by letting a guy in and him just breaking me apart again. I want you to be in it for me not the stuff you get out of it.

When You Kiss Me

I can see you with me when I'm older

All my lonely nights are finally over
You took the weight of the world off my
shoulders 

Oh, when you kiss me

I know you miss me
and when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me that you
adore me

Oh, when you kiss me

Life

There's nothing like knowing you have bestfriends. <3

Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you

Stop.

Stop playing with my mind. Just cause you're unsure about your feelings doesn't mean you can play with mine. I'm tired of being played and getting my hopes up.

Glitter in the Air

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

Bound To You

Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I’ve opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us
You’re all I need when I’m holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young, I’ve faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I’m strong and I’m sure there’s a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure
I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I embrace myself, please don’t tear this apart

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can’t you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment’s here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all? Come this far just to fall?
Fall

I can trust and boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
And finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am, ooh I am
I’m bound to you

Why?!

Tell me....why do I even bother? I feel like I'm just wasting my time. Sooner or later I'm gonna get tired of this friendship of nothing. Something needs to change.

I Feel Used

I actually fell for it, thinking you truly cared. But no you lied..it really isn't anything more than that. You just use me. No more will I be falling for your bullshit. Go find all the other girls you also run to cause I'm done. This explains sooo much.

Baby, I Won't Give Up

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Payphone

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change i've spent on you
Where are the times gone baby
It's all wrong, we're at the place we made for two
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture
That you're not here next to me
You said it's too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And then that time that you wasted
All of our bridges burnt down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now i'm paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change i've spent on you
Where have the times gone baby
It's all wrong, we're at the place we made for two

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
And all those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more f*ckin love song i'll be sick

You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But you just gave it away
You can't expect me to be a friend
I don't expect you to care
I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burnt down
I've wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now i'm paralyzed
Still stucked in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change i've spent on you
Where have the times gone baby
It's all wrong, we're at the place we made for two

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
And all those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more f*ckin love song i'll be sick

Now i'm at a payphone.

Now f*ck that sh*t
I'll be right here spending all this money while you sitting round
Wondering why wasn't you who came out from nothing
Made it from the botton
Now when you see me i'm struting
And all of my cause a way to push up a button
Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
Switched the number to my phone
So you never can call it
Don't need my name, or my show
You can tell it i'm ballin'
Shish, what a shame coulda got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could've saw
But sad to say it's over for it
Phantom roll out valet open doors
Where's the car way, got what you was looking for
Now ask me who they want
So you can go take that little piece of sh*t with you

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change i've spent on you
Where are the times gone baby
It's all wrong, we're at the place we made for two

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
And all these fairytales are full of sh*t
One more f*ckin love song I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone.

My Dilemma

You make me so upset sometimes
I feel like I could lose my mind
The conversation goes nowhere
Cause you never gonna take me there
And I know what I know
And I know you're no good for me
Yeah, I know that I know
And I know it's not meant to be

Here's my dilemma
One half of me wants you
And the other half wants forget
My my my dilemma
From the moment I met you
And I just can't get you out of my head
And I tell myself to run from you
But I found myself atractted to my dilemma
My dilemma
It's you, it's you

What to do?

Do I give up or do I keep pretending and stay as strong as I can? I don't know how much longer I can play his little game..

Teenage Dream

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punchline wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down.
Before you met me
I was a right but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my Valentine, Valentine.

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'm a get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight...

Randomness

I can't stand the way you make me smile. (:
I can't stand the way you make me laugh. :D
I can't stand the way you make me feel so loved. <3
I can't stand the way you make me feel so special. (':
I can't stand the way you make me want to kiss you. :*

-I hate that fact that the person I'm missing right now probably isn't thinking about me

*Just because we don't talk doesn't mean I don't think about you. I'm just trying to distance myself because I know I can't have you.

~Time passes. Memories fade. Feelings change. People leave. But hearts never forget.

=Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

+In a room full of people, your always the first one I look for.

&One look, one word, one kiss; they can all mean so much when it's from one special person.

^If you really missed me, really wanted to see me, you would do something about it. Instead of just talking about it.

*cause I want all of you forever, you and me, everyday

-I love it when I catch you staring at me, then you smile back, and look away.

What Should I Think?

I'm starting to really think that it's like one big joke to you, like it's nothing but talk.

Qu'est-ce que c'est?

       Tu ne comprendras jamais combien vous avez changé ma vie. Je suis tellement reconnaissante pour vous avoir dans ma vie et j'espère que vous restez dans ma viependant une longue période. Je me soucie de vous tellement et je n'ai jamais pensé queje le ferais. Vous dites que les choses vont changer, mais je suis fatigué de toutentendre, je veux voir les choses réellement changer. Je dis ce qui me rend heureux, mais je ne vois pas que tu fais la chose qui me rend vraiment sourire. J'essaie de ne pas tomber, car il serait tragique si je le faisais. Tant de choses à dire, mais qui s'en soucie, je ne fais que parler de moi-même.

You Got Me, Hope You Are Happy

I think you got the best of me
You're sleepin' with the enemy
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone
The beat drops, I'm so low
My heart stops, I already know
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me 'til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me 'til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa

All I Know Is That I'm Here And You Are Not

People never change,
They seem to stay the same.
They wear different clothes,
But play the same games.
Many different ways
To say the same thing.
Searchin for the right words,
The ones that would make you stay.

Exchanging the way things were
For they way that they should be,
Yeah.
And choosing theses words
Is saying to her,
The things that she never heard
But always deserved.

I figured what it is all about.
It's you that I could never live without.
Your everything,
The air that I breathe.
Stupid not to know it all along,
And everything I ever did was wrong.
Sadly it's too late for sorry.

Oh I'm not even really sure
Who made this mess,
And who threw what punch,
But I could not care less.
All I know is that I'm here
And you are not, Ohhh.
Once I put this wasted pride aside,
Nothin's all I got, Ohhh.

Exchanging the way things were
For they way that they should be,
Yeah.
And choosing theses words
Is saying to her,
The things that she never heard
But always deserved.

I figured what it is all about.
It's you that I could never live without.
Your everything,
The air that I breathe.
Stupid not to know it all along,
And everything I ever did was wrong.
Sadly it's too late for sorry.
Ohh,
Somebody make it stop.
Yeahh.
And pick me up,
And just dust me off, Ohh.
The rainy day flood,
Will drowned all this love.
Trapped at the bottom now,
Please dig me up.

I figured what it is all about.
It's you that I could never live without.
Your everything,
The air that I breathe.
Stupid not to know it all along,
And everything I ever did was wrong.
Sadly it's too late for sorry.

I figured what it is all about.
It's you that I could never live without.
Your everything,
The air that I breathe.
Stupid not to know it all along,
And everything I ever did was wrong.
Sadly it's too late for sorry.

Proven Right

I have been proved right. Haven't crossed their mind at all. Done trying. You want me in your life, you put me there. You want to see me, you make time to spend with me. Can't say I didn't try.

Be Successful

To be successful you must always have a smile and be positive. 

Something I Have Always Wanted

For two guys to fight over me in high school. Hate going to a small school. Hate not knowing I don't have someone like that. 

I Miss

I already miss you. Not just miss you but your voice. I need to hear it.

Be Alone

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

'Cause ya know, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you

No, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you

Hard for a pitchfork, soft for a Rockefeller
Music was my side chick, but now we're moving in together
Always felt misunderstood, I guess I have to tolerate
My swag Jehovah Witness, dude, it never take a holiday
APC jeans, brown leather jacket on
Kitsuné cable knit, cardigan from Rag & Bone
Thick Filipino chick, homemade bracelet
Her booty make her just a rapper, she ain't gotta say shit
I'm someone they admire
Set the game ablaze, I'm an arcade fire
Laughed at my rides like my motion was funny
Yes, ashy to classy, my lotion is money
The ride is easy when the dollar's there to grease the wheels
Now everybody tell me what to do and how to feel
It seems the more I try to connect with the world
I am feeling more alone than I ever have felt before
I wanna pick up the phone, ask my dad how to handle it
But what will happen when my dad's not there to answer it?
I try to clear my mind of thoughts that only slow me down
Like when these ****** call me "faggot" and "we homies now"
But we are not homies, I just keep you around
'Cause all your talkin' is the noise I need to kill this sound
Have all these voices tellin' me no one can help me out
We are alone I'm just the only one to figure out


I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

'Cause ya know, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you

No, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you


"You are the bestest, I will obey you"
These words I wrote for you when you were fuckin' other dudes
The only thing I need from you now is some solitude
Actions over words, "girls will be girls, " that's all it proves
I used to be this guy sittin' with an open heart
Now my computer screen's the only place I feel a spark
I don't fuck with fake bitches except for when I fuck with fake bitches
Canon 5D to take pictures of these girls who wouldn't talk to me a year ago
49er chick askin' for money, she get zero, though
Here I go again talkin' money, women, and clothes, and cars, right?
You could switch all of my words out with Plies', right?
People sayin' we're the same, please, come from under me
We are just some rappers, got no luxury of subtlety
No subjects when we're rappin', we say it like we hear it
I put it on a track but I hope you get the spirit 'cause.


I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone
Oh, oh, oh

'Cause ya know, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you

No, somewhere inside
I cannot find
The feeling I got from you