Grow Up.

I'm so tired of guys playing games with me. Grow the fuck up and own up to your feelings. Stop fucking playing with me and my feelings. Either you want to be with me or you don't. I'm not playing along anymore. Just because you're unsure of your feelings doesn't mean you can play with mine. I am done trying.

Stuck on Stupid

I'm so tired of feeling like this. I try to get away but every time I find myself going right back to you. You always make me feel like shit at the end of the day. Why can't I get away, why can't I stop?

I'm Lost.

I want to feel happy, I feel it coming but I honestly don't want to because knowing my luck right when I get happy, something will happen and I will be brokenhearted...again. I want to be with you, but I'm scared to. You're older than I am, so different than me but I can't help but want to be with you regardless of what anyone says. I just wish there was a way we could actually be together and be happy. I don't want to lose you, especially as a friend. My heart skips a beat every time I see you, I'm always so nervous and never know what to say. You're so different, but that's what makes me attracted to you. I don't know what to do, I'm stuck in a little hole and if I go too far I'll end up getting hurt but if I don't move, nothing will happen.

Meeeeehhhhhh

How do I go from no guys wanting me to all these guys wanting me. I dunno what to do. /: Guess time will only tell.

Game On

You want to ignore me, I can play the same exact game. Get ready.

My Moment

You see I been waiting
Waiting on that time
Feel me if you been waiting on yours
That moment…Is close

Tired of living day to day like everything is alright
Just waiting on that moment
Waiting on my moment

Old dude met mom it was on
Then he named me over a phone, prison term
Live and learn, sippin’ syrup with my vision blurred
Take this cup of reality, niggas finna err
When you start from the bottom you can see the top
So when you get to it, don’t let ‘em see the spot
Next thing you know you lookin’ for a rent sign
Upper echelon, bitch we skip line
I remember reminiscing in the kitchen like
I wonder when the Braves gon’ win it
I wonder when the Falcons gon’ get here
Pyrex vison, made more than I ever made with DTP this year

Tired of livin’ day to day like everything is alright
Every night just one thing on my mind
Just waiting on that moment
Waiting on my moment
You say how you got that shit, hell
Next time thats mine
Long as I stay hustlin I'm gon’ shine
Just waiting on that moment
Waiting on my moment

Just waiting on my moment
Bad hoes I’m showin
Time came and I owned it
Just like Lebron James and start ballin
When I touch the rock I cracked the block
When I pulled up in that muscle drop
With that roof off and my shoes off
On you bitch niggas, RuPaul
Real nigga in my hood, who errbody gon’ root for
They see my come from that bottom
Where errbody get bodied
They told me get em, I got em
Now I'm here nigga like yeah nigga
Just Rolls Royce and Bugattis
And m4 this year nigga
If I don't grind, I don't shine
If I don't shine, then I don’ eat
Won’t eat, then Ima starve
If Ima starve, I pull heat
On all yall bitch ass niggas
All yall rich azz niggas
Cuz if I don’ make no money nigga
I’m gon’ take yo money nigga

Since life ain’t promised tomorrow
Live it up live it up live it up
Here before it come this far
Give it up give it up give it up
“I won’t” give it up give it up give up
Until I have it all, YEAH

Hopes

You say that you're here for me but you aren't actually here. When I need you the most you go running. I've given you so many tries and I'm tired of getting my hopes up so I'm done. I am going to forget about you, how you made me feel, everything. I'll get to the point where when I do see you, it won't mean anything to me. Until that day comes, every time I see you, it will hurt like hell.

Never Let Go

Just Give Me a Reason

Right from the start

You were a thief

You stole my heart

And I your willing victim

I let you see the parts of me

That weren't all that pretty

And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh

Things you never say to me oh oh 

Tell me that you've had enough

Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken just bent

I'm sorry I don't understand

And we can learn to love again

Where all of this is coming from

I thought that we were fine

(Oh we had everything)

Your head is running wild again

My dear we still have everythin'

And it's all in your mind

(Yeah but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh

You used to lie so close to me oh oh

There's nothing more than empty sheets

Between our love, our love

Just give me a reason

Oh our love, our love

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

I'll never stop

You're still written in the scars on my heart

You're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Oh tear ducts and rust

I'll fix it for us

We're collecting dust

But our love's enough

You're holding it in

You're pouring a drink

No nothing is as bad as it seems

We'll come clean

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again

It Hurts

I just wanna cry but I'm trying so hard to stay strong for everyone around me. No one really cares. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up...fake smiles, fake happiness, it's only getting harder. 

I Can Feel You Forgetting About Me

I don't know how to be someone you miss.

My Sexy Thang

Oh I don't know what to do..I know I shouldn't like you, but every time we talk, I just want you more and more. The feeling I get when I see you is amazing. No matter what mood I'm in, I turn happy. We never talk much but that doesn't matter because I know that you are here for me. I wish there was something we could do, further what we have going. Maybe one day we'll get what we want. I always fall for the guys I know I can't have. When I hear you talk about someone else in your life, it's so hard because I want to be that person that is making you so happy and going to be with. I guess time will only tell, all I can do it hope someday I can be with you. I don't know what I'd do without you.

Falling In Love

It must be love because we are too afraid to say
It must be love and so we paint everything in gray
Let's not lose this chance, hold onto my hands
Let's not waste this time

'Cause today is a great day for falling in love
'Cause today is a great day for falling in love, falling in love

It must be hard to know that we'll never be the same
It must be hard to take this honored leap of faith
Let's not lose our way, let's not wait to say
How we feel inside

'Cause today is a great day for falling in love
'Cause today is a great day for falling in love
Falling in love, falling in love, falling in love, falling in love
'Cause today is a great day for falling in love, falling in love

When you're falling, falling just don't let go
When you're falling, falling just don't let go
Let's not lose this chance, hold onto my hands
Let's not waste this time

'Cause today is a great day for falling in love
'Cause today is a great day for falling in love
Falling in love, falling in love, falling in love, falling in love
'Cause today is a great day for falling in love, falling in love

You're more than everything I need, you're all I ever wanted.

You know I'd fall apart without you

I don't know how you do what you do

'Cause everything that don't make sense about me

Makes sense when I'm with you

Like everything that's green, I need you

But it's more than one and one makes two

Put aside the math and the logic of it

You gotta know you're wanted too

'Cause I wanna wrap you up

Wanna kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

And I wanna call you mine

Wanna hold your hand forever

Never let you forget it

Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted

...

And I wanna show you what I see tonight

When I wrap you up

When I kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

And I wanna call you mine

Wanna hold your hand forever

Never let you forget it

'Cause baby I wanna make you feel wanted

As good as you make me feel

I wanna make you feel better

Better than your fairy tales

Better than your best dreams

You're more than everything I need

You're all I ever wanted

All I ever wanted

And I just wanna wrap you up

Wanna kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

And I wanna call you mine

Wanna hold your hand forever

Never let you forget it

Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted

Yeah, baby I wanna make you feel

Wanted

'Cause you'll always be wanted

Sometimes

Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you, it’s like being invincible. Your whole live is ahead, you have big plans, find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were plans. Because at the end, when you’re looking back, instead of forward, you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you, you want to believe you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered. 

Black.....

This is what I see and feel. Blank. Nothing. Unimportant.

people always leave

The Truth

This is the part about love that sucks and hurts like hell. Leaves bruises forever, it's always something you'll never forget.

Hope For The Best

It's not even worth it, is it? Always wondering what could be or should be. Always wishing things were different. If its meant to be it will, just give it some time.

Cause That Feeling Is Gone...

Cause sometimes fighting for someone you want to be with isn't easy.
Cause you just wish that they have the same feelings you do.
Cause every night you lay on your bed wondering if they even care anymore.
Cause you want someone who will text you every morning and night regardless of what time.
Cause you just want them to be thinking about you just as much as you think about them.
Cause they don't act like they care anymore, you just sit and want to cry.
Cause not wanting to text first cause you feel annoying.
Cause if they wanted to talk, they would.
Cause you thought it might be different.
Cause the 'What If' is always running around in your mind.
Cause you wonder if it was a mistake to start talking.
Cause you don't know about anything anymore.
Cause there's never going to be a chance you can be together, especially when it's said.
Cause you miss what you could have been.
Cause what if it turns out to be worth it, or turns out to be the biggest mistake ever.
Cause you fell and you know you won't recover and you'll never be the same.
Cause you want them to fall for you even though you know it won't happen.
Cause you got too attached.
Cause you care too much and it doesn't even matter.
Cause that feeling they gave you was magical, like you could do anything.
Cause they had you fooled into thinking things.
Cause it never really mattered.
Cause when they looked at you, it was a different kind of feeling.
Cause you wanted to believe them so bad, but it just got too hard.
Cause you just want THEM back.
Cause you just want that feeling back, that smile, that happiness.
Cause most of all, you miss that feeling they gave you.

Wish it was different. It's never going to be the same.

What I Stare At Wondering If It's Worth It Or Not.

how the fuck do you expect me to believe what you say when you say and do the same things to other people. i'm not stupid. i'm done. i'm done. i am fucking done.

Stuck

Who knew that my heart could ever bruise. You see this scar here on my chest...I'm hurting and he don't even care. 

Barely Hanging On

I'm scared to death that there may not be another one like this and I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread. 

I Know It's Not Easy Giving Up Your Heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

Not Anymore

This is dedicated to
Mmm, well, if your feeling like I'm feeling
Then this is dedicated to you
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before
Then right where you are just get up.
Somebody say I don't want it anymore,
I don't want it anymore.
Somebody say I don't want it anymore,
I don't want it anymore.
Cause I've dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that'll treat me right
Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I don't want it anymore
...Not anymore
Mmm, no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best
'Cause I'm giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies

Here Comes Goodbye

Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain 
Here comes me wishing things had never changed

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Ever feel like you just don't belong?

Every Time You Feel Like Giving Up, Be A Fighter.

Just waking up in the morning
And to be well,
Quite honest with ya,
I ain't really sleep well
Ya ever feel like your train of thought's been derailed?
That's when you press on - Lee nails
Half the population's just waitin to see me fail
Yeah right, you're better off trying to freeze hell
Some of us do it for the females
And others do it for the retail

But I do it for the kids, life threw the towel in on
Every time you fall it's only making your chin strong
And I'll be in your corner like Mick, baby, 'til the end
Or when you hear a song from that big lady

Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

And if I can last thirty rounds
There's no reason you should ever have your head down
Six foot five, two hundred and twenty pounds
Hailing from rock bottom, loserville, nothing town

Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast
And now I'm yelling, "Kiss my ass"
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
For you to recognize you really ain't got it bad

Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

Everybody put yo hands up
What we gonna do 
What we gonna do 

If you fall pick yourself up off the floor, get up
And when your bones can't take no more, c'mon
Just remember what you're here for
Cuz I know Imma damn sure

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

'Til the referee rings the bell
'Til both ya eyes start to swell
'Til the crowd goes home,
What we gonna do kid?

Beats Me.

Honestly I'm Not Sure About Anything Anymore. 

I'm tired

I'm so tired of trying to be happy when everything keeps going so wrong. I just want everything to be right for once so I could be happy for more than an hour.

Goddammit

I fall for it EVERY TIME. Thanks for lying to me. When you lie about one thing makes me wonder what else you're lying about. I'm trying not to let it get to me but I don't know how much longer I can go on. You think I don't know but I have my ways of finding things out. Only a little bit longer do I have to act like it is not bothering me.

I Try

I try every time someone gives me a compliment to listen and take it in but I just can't. I don't feel that way. I don't do it for attention I do it cause I really don't feel that way. Really wish I didn't feel that way and could take in compliments but I just can't.

Uhm....

You Just Don't Understand, And I'm Scared To Tell You. I Wish You Didn't Just Stop Randomly, Makes Me Feel Like I Did Something Wrong.

You Are Beautiful

I Can't Be Without You Baby