Sometimes

Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you, it’s like being invincible. Your whole live is ahead, you have big plans, find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were plans. Because at the end, when you’re looking back, instead of forward, you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you, you want to believe you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered. 

Black.....

This is what I see and feel. Blank. Nothing. Unimportant.

people always leave

The Truth

This is the part about love that sucks and hurts like hell. Leaves bruises forever, it's always something you'll never forget.

Hope For The Best

It's not even worth it, is it? Always wondering what could be or should be. Always wishing things were different. If its meant to be it will, just give it some time.

Cause That Feeling Is Gone...

Cause sometimes fighting for someone you want to be with isn't easy.
Cause you just wish that they have the same feelings you do.
Cause every night you lay on your bed wondering if they even care anymore.
Cause you want someone who will text you every morning and night regardless of what time.
Cause you just want them to be thinking about you just as much as you think about them.
Cause they don't act like they care anymore, you just sit and want to cry.
Cause not wanting to text first cause you feel annoying.
Cause if they wanted to talk, they would.
Cause you thought it might be different.
Cause the 'What If' is always running around in your mind.
Cause you wonder if it was a mistake to start talking.
Cause you don't know about anything anymore.
Cause there's never going to be a chance you can be together, especially when it's said.
Cause you miss what you could have been.
Cause what if it turns out to be worth it, or turns out to be the biggest mistake ever.
Cause you fell and you know you won't recover and you'll never be the same.
Cause you want them to fall for you even though you know it won't happen.
Cause you got too attached.
Cause you care too much and it doesn't even matter.
Cause that feeling they gave you was magical, like you could do anything.
Cause they had you fooled into thinking things.
Cause it never really mattered.
Cause when they looked at you, it was a different kind of feeling.
Cause you wanted to believe them so bad, but it just got too hard.
Cause you just want THEM back.
Cause you just want that feeling back, that smile, that happiness.
Cause most of all, you miss that feeling they gave you.

Wish it was different. It's never going to be the same.

What I Stare At Wondering If It's Worth It Or Not.

how the fuck do you expect me to believe what you say when you say and do the same things to other people. i'm not stupid. i'm done. i'm done. i am fucking done.

Stuck

Who knew that my heart could ever bruise. You see this scar here on my chest...I'm hurting and he don't even care. 

Barely Hanging On

I'm scared to death that there may not be another one like this and I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread. 

I Know It's Not Easy Giving Up Your Heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

Not Anymore

This is dedicated to
Mmm, well, if your feeling like I'm feeling
Then this is dedicated to you
Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before
Then right where you are just get up.
Somebody say I don't want it anymore,
I don't want it anymore.
Somebody say I don't want it anymore,
I don't want it anymore.
Cause I've dried my eyes and I realized
I deserve somebody that'll treat me right
Because I know my word so you can keep
That drama, I don't want it anymore
...Not anymore
Mmm, no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best
'Cause I'm giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to woo me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies

Here Comes Goodbye

Here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain 
Here comes me wishing things had never changed

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Ever feel like you just don't belong?