My Dirty Little Secret

The way you make me feel is so unimaginable. You make me smile and laugh when you don’t even know it. Every time my phone lights up and I see your name, I smile. When you text me first I get butterflies cause that means you were thinking about me. Morning texts are my favorite cause that means you woke up thinking about me. I know how I’m supposed to feel about you, I’m not supposed to want you, let alone talk to you. There’s just something about you that has me coming back every day. If I had it my way I would be talking to you all day long. Every time I see you I want to run up to you and kiss you, hug you, anything. I know it’s wrong to want you and I shouldn’t but no one is going to stop me cause I love the feeling you give me. I know you don’t totally feel the same but I don’t really care because you talk to me and make me feel special. I am tired of just wishing for something to happen, I want things to happen and for things to be different. But, I fear nothing is going to change, that things are just going to stay the way they are. And if that’s the case then I will just deal with it. Sometimes I wish I could tell someone about you but then I realize you’re my dirty little secret and I love the fact of having one. It’s like I’m on a little adventure and I can’t tell anyone cause it’s top secret. I just hope we get a chance to change somethings.  

Maybe I'm a Fool

She reached her hand out with a pamphlet and I politely said "No, Mam"
I mean no disrespect and I apologize if this fucks up your program
You tell me I'm gonna burn for lying but the heat can turn water to wine
Well if there's a hell below then we're all gonna be just fine.

So there I stood six feet in sin, a walking contradiction
But am I wrong for posing question or am I another lost soul searching?
Then she gave me a look so unchristian and told she'd pray for my children
I said "If you're so holy you'll probably out-live me but if I bought a Jesus piece do you think he'd forgive me?"

Maybe I would be a fool to think
That somewhere in the sky's a place for me
What good would it be to pray for me
You won't save me, don't pray for me

Now I've never been religious
I'm just a big fan of logistics
And if it makes sense then I'm all for it
I even pray if the situation calls for it
Somebody asked me if I believe in miracles
I try to answer without sounding satirical
I'm 3 years past my expiration and yet I'm still fresher than a newborn
So I guess that's my explanation but it's safe to say I've never seen a unicorn and I never chase rainbows
But I hear the devil wears designer clothes
So does God have a favourite brand?
And for that matter, is he even a man?
And will I go to hell for even saying that?
Only time will tell I'm just relaying facts.

Maybe I would be a fool to think
That somewhere in the sky's a place for me
What good would it be to pray for me
You won't save me, don't pray for me
"Holy Horseshit Batman!!"

Through the Ghost

Speak of the devil

Look who just walked into the room

The guilt invaded

Notion of someone I once knew

All the perfects moments are wrong

All the precious pieces are gone

Everything that mattered is just

A city of dust

Covering both of us

Did you hide yourself away?

I can't see you anymore

Did you eclipse another day?

I used to wake up to the colour of your soul

Did you hide yourself away?

Are you leaving through the ghost?

Did you finally find a place

Above the shadows so the world will never know?

The world will never know you like I do

So many silent sorrows

You never hear from again

And now that you've lost tomorrow

Is yesterday still a friend?

All the bridges we built were burned

Not a single lesson was learned

Everything that mattered is just

A city of dust

Covering both of us

Did you hide yourself away?

I can't see you anymore

Did you eclipse another day?

I used to wake up to the colour of your soul

Did you hide yourself away?

Are you leaving through the ghost?

Did you finally find a place

Above the shadows so the world will never know?

The world will never know you like I do

Like I still do

Did you hide yourself away?

I can't see you anymore

Did you eclipse another day?

I used to wake up to the colour of your soul

Did you hide yourself away?

Are you leaving through the ghost?

Did you finally find a place

Above the shadows so the world will never know?

The world will never know you...

Miracle

Say it once, tell me twice
Are you certain I’m alright?
Just a sign, to remind me
That tomorrow’s worth the fight
Ever changing the storyline that keeps me alive

So make a wish, and say…

Give me life, give me love
Scarlet angel from above
Not so low, not so high
Keep it perfectly disguised
Every changing the storyline that keeps me alive
My Mona Lisa’s making me smile
Right before my eyes!
Take another look
Take a look around
It’s you and me
It’s here and now
As you sparkle in the sky
I’ll catch you while I can
Cause all we are is all I am

I just want you to see
What I’ve always believed
You are…
The miracle in me
Show me faith, like you do
I’m amazed at how you move
Side to side, front to back
You know how to make it last
Ever changing the storyline that keeps us alive
My Mona Lisa’s making me smile
Right before my eyes!
Take another look
Take a look around
It’s you and me
It’s here and now
As you sparkle in the sky
I’ll catch you while I can
Cause all we are is all I am

I just want you to see
What I’ve always believed
You are…
The miracle in me
These are the moments you can’t pass back
Let’s turn the water to wine
One more time!
The miracle in me
You’re the miracle in me