All I Wanted

I thought I could trust more people. I thought you were someone I could trust, someone that would always have my back. The thought of not having you by my side kills me but I just can't trust you anymore. I thought fersure you'd always be by my side but as the days went on you kept breaking that trust. I just wish I could go back to the days of believing everyone and trusting everyone, that day will never come though. It's all gone, it's over, there's nothing I can do to be a better person. I tried changing for you but it didn't work out. I am who I am and I'm tired of trying to be someone else for you. I just miss how everything used to be so easy and I didn't cry unless I was hurt or I missed my mom. Why can't this be easy? Why does it keep getting harder and harder and my life get worse and worse? I don't regret having you in my life because I do believe everything happens for a reason. I just don't know what to do anymore, I thought everything was perfect and then, all at once, it fell apart.  (and no i don't care if this doesn't make sense cause to me it does)