Goodbye

I really never thought the saying "Goodbye" would ever come out of my mouth when it came to you. I tried trusting you and giving you more chances but every time I gave you another chance, you just threw it away. I truly miss how everything was, how we used to be. I guess the saying of "everyone changes" is true but I didn't think that it would change us. On the outside I might look like an almighty girl who can get through anything, but really, on the inside I'm falling apart faster than I can fix myself. Every time I see you, I want to give you and hug and be all happy with you again but you just blow me off. Sometimes I feel like trusting you was a big mistake. I've learned that I let you take advantage of me and I've learned to make you one of those people who aren't worth crying over and is not worth any of my time. "There comes a time in life when you have to figure out who is worth having in your life and who isn't." and you are definitely not worth having in my life anymore. Sometimes I guess it takes a couple of mistakes to realize what is really important and what kind of people you need to pay attention to. I really wish things were different. Saying goodbye is the only choice you have left me with.

All I Wanted

I thought I could trust more people. I thought you were someone I could trust, someone that would always have my back. The thought of not having you by my side kills me but I just can't trust you anymore. I thought fersure you'd always be by my side but as the days went on you kept breaking that trust. I just wish I could go back to the days of believing everyone and trusting everyone, that day will never come though. It's all gone, it's over, there's nothing I can do to be a better person. I tried changing for you but it didn't work out. I am who I am and I'm tired of trying to be someone else for you. I just miss how everything used to be so easy and I didn't cry unless I was hurt or I missed my mom. Why can't this be easy? Why does it keep getting harder and harder and my life get worse and worse? I don't regret having you in my life because I do believe everything happens for a reason. I just don't know what to do anymore, I thought everything was perfect and then, all at once, it fell apart.  (and no i don't care if this doesn't make sense cause to me it does)

Was It Worth It?

Do you like making people feel like they aren’t good enough for you? Like they will never fit in or they will never get far in life because they aren’t like you? Well guess what, I’m sick and tired of having to deal with you guys. Sure I am not perfect or someone like you, but I am me and that’s all I will ever be. I’m not going to pretend to be someone so we can be friends. For quite some time now I have truly tried to listen to you and be there for you, and make it so I can trust you. Lately, you have made all that very hard. I tell you something and you go tell everyone something that I didn’t even truly say, YOU make it a bigger deal. I thought you were a better person and wouldn’t let someone get in the way of our friendship but I guess I was wrong. You let people push YOU around and now you aren’t friends with me. After all that we have been through, you choose them. Well I hate to tell you but I’m done with trying to maybe have you or waiting for you cause hunny, I’m done waiting for you. Next time you look behind you, in front of you or behind you, I won’t be there. I’m tired of waiting for you to come back to me. I never thought there would be a time we’d have to say goodbye. I’ve tried holding on for as long as I can and I’m not strong enough anymore. It’s time for me to let you go once and for all. After this, no turning back. I hope you’re happy now. It hurts me to do this, but you brought it on yourself and in the end it’ll hurt you more than it has hurt me. So no farewells or see ya later, you get a GOODBYE.