No Point

So I find it sad when someone who is supposed to know you like the most barely knows who you are. They think "oh she's my ....... I know who she is, I could never not know." Well you know what, you don't know me, you don't know anything about me. You never have cared enough to get to know me or to stay in touch with me. You still don 't care about me and I really don't think you ever will. When i need something I don't come to you because i know you will not help me out one bit. So please, just do me one thing and stop pretending like you care and leave me alone. kthanks.

Every Rose Has It's Thorn

We both lie silently still in the dead of the night,
Although we both lie close together,
We feel miles apart inside,

Was it something I said or something I did,
Did my words not come out right,
Though I tried not to hurt you,
Yeah I tried,
But I guess that's why they say,

Every rose has it's thorn
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has it's thorn.

I listen to our favorite song playing on the radio
Hear the DJ say loves a game of easy come and easy go
But I wonder, does he know
Has he ever felt like this
And I know that you'd be here right now
If I, I could let you know somehow

Every rose has it's thorn
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has it's thorn

Though it's been a while now
I can still feel so much pain
Like a knife that cuts you the wound heals
But that scar, that scar remains.

Life or My Life?

it's kind of hard to find a happy place when every night i sit in one place, my room. what do i do in here. nothing but think, think about what it would be life if i wasn't here. what people would really think of me. i think about everything. i swear that i'm a two faced person. i act one way to 'protect' me when i think it actually hurts me. and when i try to be happy i don't know what to think of other than the fact that i have some friends, and i guess family. i don't even know if i really am happy at school with friends or if it's pretend. i'm so used to fake smiles or whatever. now i do know i have times when i am happy but then it doesn't last long. i just don't know who i am anymore. more and more things keep getting worse and all i hear is 'it will get better' that might be true but i'm tired of hearing it. all i want to do is cry, cry until i don't have anymore tears to cry.

Nothing to Say But..

I don't want you in my life.

Don't Leave Me

Every moment I can't see you my heart hurts. I never want to be apart from you, stay with my forever. When I see you I don't ever want to look away. Your eyes put me in a daze, I don't think about anything or anyone else when I look at you. Baby you got me under a spell, you got me falling, falling like I never have before. You make my heart spin round. When I get around you my heart stops beating and I can’t breathe, not one single breath.  Every moment I get with you I cherish it, I will never forget how you make me feel. I don't know if you feel the same way I do, all I know is I can't get enough of you. Stay mine and WE can fight through the hard times together. WE can get through anything that gets in our way. I need you more than anything, please don't leave me. Don't have me falling if you're not whiling to catch me.. I need us to work, i need us to be together and not care what anyone thinks, if they have a problem, forget them, they aren't worth it.  

     

Leave Me Alone

Dude freaking let me do what i want, if i want to skip class LET ME! it's my fault if i miss class. Please learn that it's my fault if i miss anything that i need to know. Let me do what i want. If i could i would miss your class and NEVER see you. Why!?!? Because you make my life so painful and are SO annoying. Just LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF YOU CAN'T TELL I REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU OR YOUR CLASS AND I WILL DO WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT.

My World.

Words cannot even describe how i feel right now. Baby you make me so happy, I'm not going to let anyone get in our way. People can say whatever they want, but it's not going to bring me down. Please don't leave me, you make me so happy. I want you to be in my arms, i want to hold you tight and never let you go. So take my hand and never let go. No one can bring us down. <33

Thankful

i'm SO glad you are in my life. i would be lost without you. you listened to me when i needed someone the most. you understand who i am because you are like me. i'm so thankful for you being in my life. Payne i love you and you are the bestest friend anyone could ever ask for(:

WHY?!?!?

why do people always have to ruin what we have? i don't care what people will think, they can hate me, they can hate you, they can hate us but, they won't stop me from being with you. if they really cared about me or you they wouldn't care who we're with. just take my hand, hold it tight and never let go. nothing will come between us if you don't let go. we can get through whatever as long as we stick together. baby i will never let anyone get in our way.

You

every time i look into your eyes all i want is to be with you. when i look into your eyes no one else matters. you are all i think about. every time i see you my heart stops beating and i turn red. i wish i could tell everyone how i feel about you, but that would be the end of me. why can't you just see i want you?

GRRRR!

you piss me off like there's no tomorrow. you can't make up your mind. you seem like you want me one minute, the next you totally ignore me and act like you don't care about me. either stay in my life or leave, i don't like how you keep teasing me. STOP. we should be together, i don't care what people say, they can say whatever they want. they aren't going to make me change my mind about you. now tell me how you feel?

Broken Heart

You hurt me and you don't even know it.
Every night I stay up crying about you,
I always thought that you would be in my life forever,
Now you are slowly slipping away from me

You don't get me; you don't get who I am anymore
I never once had a doubt in my mind about you,
Until today, when I realized you really don't care about me.

You broke promises and my heart,
I broke promises and your heart.
We never realized how much we had hurt each other. 
I still don't think you know how much I was hurt.
It wasn't just you who hurt me, I hurt myself, 
I hurt you and you let me hurt you.

Now I look around and I feel lost,
I don't have you in my life anymore,
I look in front of me and you aren't there
You aren't even behind me or beside me.
I thought for sure you would always be there.

All I have left to do is hope.
Hope that someone somewhere will come along,
Come along and fix my heart.
Fix the heart that you broke.
The heart that isn't easy to fix.

I have one wish.
For you to love me the way I love you.
It kills me knowing you only love me as a friend.
Nothing more than a friend..

I'm better off just pretending like nothing ever happened.
Like I never really knew you,
I have to let go of all the memories, good and bad.
I just need to say goodbye, I need to let go of you.