No Point

So I find it sad when someone who is supposed to know you like the most barely knows who you are. They think "oh she's my ....... I know who she is, I could never not know." Well you know what, you don't know me, you don't know anything about me. You never have cared enough to get to know me or to stay in touch with me. You still don 't care about me and I really don't think you ever will. When i need something I don't come to you because i know you will not help me out one bit. So please, just do me one thing and stop pretending like you care and leave me alone. kthanks.

Every Rose Has It's Thorn

We both lie silently still in the dead of the night,
Although we both lie close together,
We feel miles apart inside,

Was it something I said or something I did,
Did my words not come out right,
Though I tried not to hurt you,
Yeah I tried,
But I guess that's why they say,

Every rose has it's thorn
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has it's thorn.

I listen to our favorite song playing on the radio
Hear the DJ say loves a game of easy come and easy go
But I wonder, does he know
Has he ever felt like this
And I know that you'd be here right now
If I, I could let you know somehow

Every rose has it's thorn
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has it's thorn

Though it's been a while now
I can still feel so much pain
Like a knife that cuts you the wound heals
But that scar, that scar remains.

Life or My Life?

it's kind of hard to find a happy place when every night i sit in one place, my room. what do i do in here. nothing but think, think about what it would be life if i wasn't here. what people would really think of me. i think about everything. i swear that i'm a two faced person. i act one way to 'protect' me when i think it actually hurts me. and when i try to be happy i don't know what to think of other than the fact that i have some friends, and i guess family. i don't even know if i really am happy at school with friends or if it's pretend. i'm so used to fake smiles or whatever. now i do know i have times when i am happy but then it doesn't last long. i just don't know who i am anymore. more and more things keep getting worse and all i hear is 'it will get better' that might be true but i'm tired of hearing it. all i want to do is cry, cry until i don't have anymore tears to cry.

Nothing to Say But..

I don't want you in my life.

Don't Leave Me

Every moment I can't see you my heart hurts. I never want to be apart from you, stay with my forever. When I see you I don't ever want to look away. Your eyes put me in a daze, I don't think about anything or anyone else when I look at you. Baby you got me under a spell, you got me falling, falling like I never have before. You make my heart spin round. When I get around you my heart stops beating and I can’t breathe, not one single breath.  Every moment I get with you I cherish it, I will never forget how you make me feel. I don't know if you feel the same way I do, all I know is I can't get enough of you. Stay mine and WE can fight through the hard times together. WE can get through anything that gets in our way. I need you more than anything, please don't leave me. Don't have me falling if you're not whiling to catch me.. I need us to work, i need us to be together and not care what anyone thinks, if they have a problem, forget them, they aren't worth it.